All my mind

I've seen the end of my trip. The new school is really not my taste. I don't like seeing so many Taiwanese here. So I decided that it is time to go home. During the last month, I'm gonna travel to San Francisco and New York. I wish I could go to Dallas and say goodbye to them. But I think I run out of time. I have to prepare many things to go home. I have a complicated feeling that I want to go home and I want to stay here. Maybe next time I come here is two or ten years later. I hope it is two.

When I was a little kid, I wanted to decide everything.
When I became a grown-up, I couldn't decide anything.
I have so many things to do, have so many dreams to be come true.
But I just lost my energy again.

The small ship got lost on the huge ocean.
Where are the captain and the crew?

小時候玩積木，總是想要快快的堆高高，堆的越高越高興，
但是最後會發現，因為沒打好基礎所以總是堆不高。

現在總覺得我的英文就像積木一般，我非常努力的往上堆，
雖然一下就很感覺積木已經很高了，但是仔細一看，積木卻
是搖搖晃晃的，如果小時候的堆積木，根基沒打好，再怎麼
快的想要堆上去遲早有一天會倒下來。

I just went watching a few movies when I was in Taiwan. I think the America commercial is very success. Because I want to see a lot of movies now. There are really many good movies on theater. Wanted, Incredible Hulk, Get smart, Wall-E, The Dark Knight, and so on. Too many films I want to watch.

I've watched four movies since I came here. The Bank Job, Ironman, Indiana Jones and Kung fu Panda. They were really good movies. I think action movies fit me for now. Because I can't understand too complicated movie. And I think my listening is really improving. At first, I only heard about 50%. Now I can heard about 70%~90%. It depends on the movies with how many speech. I'm happy and I need to keep going.

I have to live in a homestay family finally. I don't like to stay in homestay, because there is always too far to school. I don't like spending all day on the bus or some transportations. But I didn't find a apartment, so I decided to live with a America family.

Actually, I was living with a America family before when I stayed in David's house. But this time, the family is totally I don't know. It must be a good experience I think. And I need to thanks Harvey to take me for several days in his room. Although I don't like to disturb someone, but I had to find a place to live. It was sorry to Harvey and Jack.

After carrying a luggage and walking for a ten minutes. I arrived the homestay house. Host father Tim who is a tall American and host mom Mieko who is a Japanese are very nice persons. They have many experience to take care immigrant students. They are doing homestay for eight years. Their son Cory who is a 18 years old cool guy is very strong. I want to play basketball with him, but I think I will get hurt.

This is a very nice family. I really am a lucky guy to meet so many good persons.

My lovely nephews, Ian, kyle and lala.

I often think about many things which are in the future recently. Like when to get marry, how many kids I want to have, where is the best place I want to stay for a long time, and what should I do to make me be a better person. Something is very impossible to happen in a short time. But I just can't help to think about those things.

I start missing something in Taiwan. Like riding a motocyle, eat some nightmarket food, my family, my friends, my lovely puppy, and my sweat room. I've stayed many places and always change place to live. It makes me meet a lot of new friends. But I can't feel some place like my home. I think it's time to go home. My trip is going to end. I really have got enough information to judge here.

I got a little tired about traveling now. I need to rest for a while.

The last week was a nightmare for me. Because I realized the Portland State School English program is not so cheap than I thought. So I always was thinking about this kind of things during last week. Go to Oregon or not to, go back Taiwan soon or not, find a new school in Dallas or Oregon. My head almost exploded. Although Lucy gave me some advises, but I have to decide it by myself. Before the previous day of going to Portland, I made the decision finally. I am going to Portland.

The reason why I chose Portland is I can't stay Dallas anymore. In fact, I can't bother David family's life anymore. I am a very fair person. If someone do something nice for me, I will do something nice return. I felt I couldn't give them anything back. And Texas is a place that you can't live without a car. If I want to go somewhere, I need to someone's help. I don't like the way. I think that It always bothers someone. So I decided to leave. The other reason is time to change a new environment. The final reason is that I'm not ready go back Taiwan to find a job. I think I need two more months to increase my English ability and my confident. I need the time to get ready everything. After this I can find my confident with good English.

結束了在David家的寄宿，離別永遠伴隨著淡淡的哀傷，在他們家住了一個月，對兩個小朋友還有David、Lucy實在很感謝，完全是活在非常美國式的家庭中，我非常喜歡他們家過生活的方式，我想這就是我理想中的生活吧，我將來一定要往這個目標來努力。

在這個月我去了很多好玩的地方，吃了很多非常好吃的餐廳，看了幾部好的電影，最重要的是我找到的我的目標，我開始看到我該走的路，雖然目前還不太清楚，但我已經知道要往哪裡努力，現在開始就可以朝這個方向前進，謝謝David跟我說了很多在美國工作的事情，還有Lucy請她的朋友Emily帶我去看Dallas這邊的學校，也跟我討論了很多學校的事，給我很多思考的方向，還有兩個Big boy陪我玩，不要說他們會想念我了，我才會非常想念他們，我希望我的小孩也跟他們一樣聰明，有活力，可愛。

將來他們到台灣來玩的時候，也該是我報恩的時候，等我回去台灣，我要好好研究一下，讓他們下次的台灣之旅充滿樂趣，怎麼說呢，他們也來過好幾次台灣，不過之前都是長輩們代他們吃吃玩玩，長輩們一定不會帶他們去有趣的地方啦，所以這個責任就要交給小輩我們啦，該是我們接棒的時候。

總之德州真是非常棒的地方，我認為是非常適合培育家庭的地方，而且非常有特色，比起San Diego有特色，將來選Graduate時，德州是我非常重點的地方了，我要努力，不是希望而已，我一定要來美國工作。

Last week, I went to the Washington DC and Philadelphia with a tourist group. It was very interesting to travel alone. I can go anywhere I want to. There were many Chinese and Indian. The poor guide guy had to introduce every places with two languages English and Chinese.

I went to many places which were I always wanted to see. Like White House(although I could watch it from far far away), Capital Building, Washington Memorial, Jefferson Memorial, Lincoln Memorial, Independence square and etc.. I saw these many times on the movies but this time I really saw them personal.

It was a good trip. If I have some free time, I will have another trip like this one. I am a very lazy person and not good for individual travel. But the trip have some defects that the time on each spot was too short. We just take stop over and took some pictures, then went back to coach. I can't control my time free.

Anyway that was a nice experience.

Philadelphia


Independence square

Baltimore Inner Harbor


a little like San Diego harbor

Air&Space Museum, Washington DC

I changed my return flight and booked flight to Portland finally. I can totally enjoy my trip. I joined a tour which goes to Washington D.C. and Philadelphia tomorrow for two days. I think it will be a nice trip.

I like to play game which called Guitar Hero in XBOX 360 recently. That was my first time to play Xbox and it's pretty cool. Maybe I will buy one because Guitar Hero. I always felt my hand wasn't mine when I play Guitar Hero. I realized these persons who play guitar well are so good.

Stay here longer or return when next session end? This question always appear in my mind recently. I should stay longer until my English is good enough or by the time finish next session and go back or by the time I go back and have some GRE or TOELF to apply for a master degree. There are too many questions in my brain. I couldn't find a way out. Actually these problem aren't solved at a short time. If I continue to think about these all day, I would be crazy.

Maybe I need to refresh my head. To find out the most important thing of myself. There is another problem appeared that I want to work in America or Taiwan.

The past three weeks is the most comfortable days since I came to America. The life which stay in David's house was such a great time. I saw the real American's family. David and Lucy treated me as a family member. I really appreciate they give me such a great time. And my two little conversation teachers are very cute and funny. I can play with they all day with happiness.

Happy time always goes fast. I had a really good time at Dallas. Separation always with sadness. If I stay the comfortable place too long, I afraid I will forgot my purple. The first purple make me came to America is to study English and find the life goal. I appreciate David and Lucy told me many things about finding my way. But I still need to find out the way I want by myself, because this is my life. I won't regret anything which was I decided it.

I really don't like that I can tell someone I really love him or her. I am such a weaker.

I was very exciting when I decided to study English in America. I couldn't stop imagining the life in the America. I always want to go to U.S. since I was a child. Because I have seen a lot of movies which described U.S. I want to see the real Americans, Americans' big house, giant hamburger and American polices with big belly. I'm staying in U.S. for more than two months. It's much better than I thought. I finally understood why some people came here and don't want to go back.

The first two months I stayed in San Diego. There is a beautiful place with many nice views. I met many people from all over the world. It's very interesting to talk with so many countries' people. Some friends said that they couldn't be used to some America culture like tip, oily food or bathroom without bathtub. But I don't have these problems because I watched America movies to learn here's culture for a long time. So nothing is strange for me in here. That's why I got used to U.S very soon.

I like many things to live in U.S. I like America food like hamburger, hotdog, fries and all the other junk food. Although it's not good for my health. I like everything is big in here like big house, big food, big parking space and big belly. I met a lot of Americans who were very friendly. Even someone who is you don't know will talk to you on trolley, bus, shops or street. I think it's interesting because it's strange to talk to stranger in Chinese culture.

I really like to stay in America. At first, I only planed to stay about three months. I changed my plan to stay longer now. It's also because my English have a good improvement and I want to keep on it. I hope that I could speak and use good English when I go back Taiwan. I will try to find a job in U.S.

兩個月在SAN DIEGO的生活真是認識了很多的朋友，在要離開的前幾天一直都在說離別的話，不知不覺心情也有點可惜，好不容易開始熟了起來卻是要離開的時刻，不過這就是人生吧，沒有不散的宴席，我相信將來一定有機會再碰面的。
比較要好的韓國朋友、巴西朋友，當然還有台灣幫的成員，Vincent夫婦、Ed夫婦、Deron夫婦、Michael、Eric、Nancy，大家台灣見啦，最後幾天居然太忙、我忘了去買幾件聖地牙哥的紀念品，真是笨啊，希望還有機會再去那邊。

I can't put my pictures in my article. It's very strange thing. I look pixnet's website to find some solution. But it still didn't work. It's make me crazy. Maybe I should change to another blog again. Moving to a new place is a hard thing. Why I can't use picture on it?

Last Thursday, our ELS' students went to watching Major League Baseball game. Because the original price is $21, but our group price just $10. So it's real cheap and there were about 60 people went together. Some of them even haven't watched baseball game. They want to feel the feeling about real baseball game. I think they really worth in it. Because we almost watched two and half game in the end. But it was a little boring because that game was a pitcher battle. It means that it's not so exciting. Until 9 inn

I think my teacher Sandra is very right. She told us "Why don't you go out to talk with real American people? I'm not a real person." It's very strange to talk with a person who is you don't know in Asia culture. My classmate who came from Brazil was invited to someone's personal party just after their five minutes conversation. She said that we should talk to real American. We shouldn't just study English in the classroom. Her speaking is really shock me. That's what I'm think about recently.